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It’s a new year! I’m feelin pretty good. It’s day 3 of my 21 day challenge. I already broke a couple of my challenges… I ate a whole bag of skittles today! I couldn’t help myself. I just love sweets They say it takes 21 days to make or break a habit. I’m going to give it a shot and see if it really works. I haven’t had any soda or coffee!!! I know that will be easy to stick to for 21 days. I’ve also been taking my vitamins faithfully. I feel accomplished.

You should see my resolution board! It is so awesome. I recommend every person create one. It truly helps you visualize your goals. I got the idea from the movie “The Women.” The main character makes a board that shows everything she wants. I have mine right by my bed so it stares me right in the face when I wake up and taunts me all day haha! A few things I have on there… recycle, exercise, vitamin c, eat less beef, water, etc. All the little stuff I tend to forget or let slide. Here’s a sneak peek!!!

Awww I’m watching Jingle All the Way and Turboman just caught his son flying through the air. I wish Turboman was here… I’d like to go flying through the sky It was definitely a cute family movie. I’m here with my family now. It’s been a really nice visit. My brother is stripping now… don’t ask me why haha. He’s crazy.

We’re supposed to go the mall tomorrow. More junk in my trunk. Then it’s off to a miniature castle… Amanda’s house. I can’t believe it’s about to be 2009! Insane in the membrane. I have so many things I want to do in the new year. The tricky part is going to be juggling them all and keeping my head straight. My first step… I’ve joined a volunteer organization. Well I signed up online and the organization is closed till January 5th so we’ll see if they still have a spot It’s planting trees in San Francisco. I’m really passionate about the environment so I figure it’s a good place to start.

Final Note — Arnold Schwarzenegger isn’t half bad hehe

I put the world on pause for one week. Time stood still. I just got my cell phone back… despite my desire to stay hidden away in my cave, i’m back. Oh and this time it’s “No man”. Just the opposite of “Yes man” the movie where Jim Carrey has to say yes to everything.

I need to try out the word no. I’m taking baby steps I actually declined a movie invite last night! Milk is probably a good movie but it’s not really my cup of tea. Instead of making up some random excuse of why I couldn’t go. Or sucking it up and regretting it after. I told them the truth and said no!!!

It was a great feeling. I’m way too nice. I’m going to stay nice but I need to be more honest with how I feel. I believe in myself. Just read the XXX vitamin water label. I can’t quite remember what it said but I remember it was inspiring! Something about sex and the city and being a healthy woman. Oh and the flavor is good too The point is it’s over red rover! I’m tired of bending over for the “Man”.

Final Note — Just say no!

Today was a crazy day. They’ve decided to shake up the desk arrangements at work. Which really sucks because I love my current seat. I have the most awesomeness couch! I also am around people I feel comfortable with. They know the “real” me. The one that’s not afraid to argue a point even if she isn’t right The biggest issue I see is me being separated from my department. We have work related conversations on a daily basis. I guess I’ll finally have a use for my work phone!

I’m going to miss my co-workers… its weird. You get used to seeing the same people everyday. I’m scared. I don’t know what’s next. But I wasn’t ready for change Hey everything happens for a reason right? Maybe fate will bring me a hot guy in the form of a new hire haha. Just kidding! Never mix work and pleasure. It’s not fun.

Final Note — Keep rude comments to yourself.

How come every time I go to visit my family I find myself wanting to end whatever relationship i’m currently in? Perhaps it’s me seeing through sober eyes. Or having a sense of belonging and trust. Something my current relationships must lack… I haven’t met the right person yet. I know exactly what I want but for some reason it seems so impossible to find. I want someone that’s head over heels for me What ever happened to love at first sight? Does that bullshit even exist…

They say you truly love someone when you put them before yourself. To me that sounds like heartache waiting to happen. But without love your heart aches so what’s the difference? It’s better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all. I need to stop being a love coward and open up my heart a little. I feel scarred

Final Note — No pain no gain.

I just watched Diary of a Mad Black Woman. It sounds funny right? It was actually a really great movie! Very inspiring. It makes me want to be a better person… it also made me realize that I’m an angry mad white woman I’m waiting for my Orlando. If only he were real. There has to be a few nice guys left. If nice guys finish last then I guess I just gotta be patient. Maybe at the steel factory.

Today was a good day. Tomorrow I have to wake up at the crack of dawn and its off to grandmothers house. I can’t wait to hear my grandpa’s stories! He’s so cute. I wish I was closer. Time feels so precious when I’m there. The view is beautiful! I should take a picture. I can’t wait to hear what my family thinks about Obama being president. I say GO OBAMA! OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA… Check Out the Obama Video!

Final Note — Let go of your guilt.

I have a feeling this is going to be a long day. I was running a little late this morning so instead of walking up the fifteen minute hilly hike to the Bart station I decided to catch the bus. Right as I approached the bus stop I saw the bus pulling away. Usually there are two buses in a row. Unfortunately the one that just passed was “usually” the second one. Accepting I’d been defeated I contemplated my next action… A little lazy voice inside my head said wait for the next bus. Then my counter impatient voice said if you run you just might make it. I knew it was surely a leap but I just hate waiting.

So I started running. Just my luck, a team of construction workers were directly across the street. Unaware of what exactly they were saying, another voice said hey maybe one of them are hot Haha! I kept running. As my legs started to give sure enough another bus went by. Stuck between the two bus stops I cringed. Basically I walked the rest of the way and accepted that I probably wouldn’t catch the early shuttle this morning. Ironically I still made it.

Final Note — Listen to the first voice that pops in your head.

Wow… it’s been a long time since I’ve written anything. Time flies when your having fun I put up my christmas tree today! It’s absolutely beautiful. I decided to do it a little different this year. Thanks to my buddy Chiao! The ornament she gave me inspired me to use some new bright colors. I should have a tree year round and switch up the decorations for different holidays. Next month I can decorate it with miniature bottles of hard alcohol for New Years!

Speaking of New Years this year I need to make sure and write down my resolution… that way I can at least remember it Then I should also come up with a system for tracking my progress. In case your wondering I don’t feel different now that I’m 25. My birthday was incredible though! I feel fortunate to have so many generous friends. It was the longest birthday ever! You can see the start of my pre-birthday night in the photo below Amanda, Bobbi and I went to an art opening! That’s some of the featured artwork behind me.

Final Note — Color is good.

Today I feel like my eyes are distorted. Either that… or people just look really strange. When you add music to your day it’s almost like you create a fantasy world where people move to your music. I love listening to music and watching people walk by. Or even better! Listening to music with cartoons. If your lucky they’ll go together

As long as I have music I’m happy. Tonight I’m going to listen to some frenchies play guitar. Another one of my all time favorite things! Live music. Ooooooh especially if there’s a hot guy in the band!

Final Note — Music will add flavor to your life.