dream blog - archives - January 2009

moving moons

Saturday, January 31st, 2009

Allyn Beth Brown Looking Fly

Dream: I was at my old best friends house in Morgan Hill where I grew up. I was outside on the front lawn and I looked up into the sky. I could see three circles. I think it was the sun. The middle one was bright red and glowing like a sunset. The other two were right next to it. All of a sudden they started moving. It was almost transparent and started moving around in big circles. Like huge loops in the sky.

I thought I was tripping out. At first I couldn’t stop staring and I kept saying wow. But then it looked like it was getting closer. It almost looked like a planet when it was closer. It flew right over my head. At this point I was like WTF is going on. I ran back in the house. It crashed outside the house almost in the middle of the culdesac.

In the house as I was walking in I could see from the back sliding door what looked like meteors still flying through the sky. I could see some random girl with long red hair sitting in a desk by the window next to the door. A meteor rolled up to the back of the house.

Final Note — Paint your dreams

you

Friday, January 23rd, 2009

Orhid on the 152 by Allyn Beth Brown

If u don’t care then why should I?
I torment myself inside
trying to fulfill you
but what about me?
Or the friends I leave.
Why can’t I hold the power?
how could you NOT
want to shower
with this?
A bitch no.
Try the most generous fool in the book.
The same sad ending
you took me for granted.

Final Note — A little too late goes a long way…


spoken word

Thursday, January 22nd, 2009

Allyn Beth Brown Over Shasta Lake

I’d like to say something positive. Despite my silent bitter state. A strange sense of happiness. Hearing the powerhouse words of passengers of the same boat. Am I like them? Are they like me? I hear myself in their words. I feel their struggle their passion. A quest for answers.

When spoken in such a manor one begins to believe… this truly is a silly life we live. Our states of mind fluctuate depending on our current scenario. A constant pretender in this world based on lies. Lust, lack of trust, people of dust my heart has rusted through. I’m tired of trying to please others. I need to focus on myself.

Final Note — Spoken Word! don’t knock it till you try it :)

miniature monsters

Friday, January 9th, 2009

Allyn Beth on the Shuttle Rockin Out

So you might not know me but i’m a tad bit impatient haha. It’s almost as if I have an invisible force constantly pushing me forward. I can’t sit still :) I feel like there’s always something I could be doing. I think I see similar qualities in my mom. Maybe it runs in the family…

Speaking of family I miss them. I really wish we could me closer. My mom is a sweetheart. I feel so safe and complete when we’re together. I hope one day I can share the same love with my own family. Well see… I’m not really that keen to children aka miniature monsters :)

Final Note — Do it


karma gets me everytime

Thursday, January 8th, 2009

Allyn Beth Brown Stamp Design

Uggghhhh I feel so frustrated. I have so many things I want to do and too little time. Then there’s all the things I don’t want to do but I can’t decline :( Sometimes I wish for isolation. A silly thought for you’re never truly alone. I wish for silent thoughts. Freedom.

I guess I have to accept the things I can’t change and work on the rest :) Once again, a better tomorrow starts with today! How long do broken hearts take to heal? And what if it keeps breaking repeatedly. Karma!!! I’m telling you that shit exists.

I’m slowly getting to where I want to be… I know I’ll make it to the top! And there’s no way but up from here.

Final Note — Keep on reaching!

recycle, reduce, reuse

Monday, January 5th, 2009

Please Recycle!

Day four of my 21 day challenge!!! I give myself an A for effort. Still no coffee or soda! Vitamins check :) exercise here I come. Cindy Whitmarsh from Exercise TV is awesome! I’m going to get a six pack! I ate a salad today so it’s for real haha. Dance dance revolution is for cool people like me. Watch us work it! Work it on out :)

My next step should be the environment… Too bad the weathers so crappy lately. I should get some special light bulbs! I’m going to plant trees!!! Fun in the sun.

Final Note — Recycle, Reduce, Reuse


happy new year!

Sunday, January 4th, 2009

Allyn Beth Brown on New Years!

It’s a new year! I’m feelin pretty good. It’s day 3 of my 21 day challenge. I already broke a couple of my challenges… I ate a whole bag of skittles today! I couldn’t help myself. I just love sweets :) They say it takes 21 days to make or break a habit. I’m going to give it a shot and see if it really works. I haven’t had any soda or coffee!!! I know that will be easy to stick to for 21 days. I’ve also been taking my vitamins faithfully. I feel accomplished.

You should see my resolution board! It is so awesome. I recommend every person create one. It truly helps you visualize your goals. I got the idea from the movie “The Women.” The main character makes a board that shows everything she wants. I have mine right by my bed so it stares me right in the face when I wake up and taunts me all day :) haha! A few things I have on there… recycle, exercise, vitamin c, eat less beef, water, etc. All the little stuff I tend to forget or let slide. Here’s a sneak peek!!!

My Resolution Board