dream blog - archives - November 2008

How come every time I go to visit my family I find myself wanting to end whatever relationship i’m currently in? Perhaps it’s me seeing through sober eyes. Or having a sense of belonging and trust. Something my current relationships must lack… I haven’t met the right person yet. I know exactly what I want but for some reason it seems so impossible to find. I want someone that’s head over heels for me What ever happened to love at first sight? Does that bullshit even exist…

They say you truly love someone when you put them before yourself. To me that sounds like heartache waiting to happen. But without love your heart aches so what’s the difference? It’s better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all. I need to stop being a love coward and open up my heart a little. I feel scarred

Final Note — No pain no gain.

I just watched Diary of a Mad Black Woman. It sounds funny right? It was actually a really great movie! Very inspiring. It makes me want to be a better person… it also made me realize that I’m an angry mad white woman I’m waiting for my Orlando. If only he were real. There has to be a few nice guys left. If nice guys finish last then I guess I just gotta be patient. Maybe at the steel factory.

Today was a good day. Tomorrow I have to wake up at the crack of dawn and its off to grandmothers house. I can’t wait to hear my grandpa’s stories! He’s so cute. I wish I was closer. Time feels so precious when I’m there. The view is beautiful! I should take a picture. I can’t wait to hear what my family thinks about Obama being president. I say GO OBAMA! OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA… Check Out the Obama Video!

Final Note — Let go of your guilt.

I have a feeling this is going to be a long day. I was running a little late this morning so instead of walking up the fifteen minute hilly hike to the Bart station I decided to catch the bus. Right as I approached the bus stop I saw the bus pulling away. Usually there are two buses in a row. Unfortunately the one that just passed was “usually” the second one. Accepting I’d been defeated I contemplated my next action… A little lazy voice inside my head said wait for the next bus. Then my counter impatient voice said if you run you just might make it. I knew it was surely a leap but I just hate waiting.

So I started running. Just my luck, a team of construction workers were directly across the street. Unaware of what exactly they were saying, another voice said hey maybe one of them are hot Haha! I kept running. As my legs started to give sure enough another bus went by. Stuck between the two bus stops I cringed. Basically I walked the rest of the way and accepted that I probably wouldn’t catch the early shuttle this morning. Ironically I still made it.

Final Note — Listen to the first voice that pops in your head.

Wow… it’s been a long time since I’ve written anything. Time flies when your having fun I put up my christmas tree today! It’s absolutely beautiful. I decided to do it a little different this year. Thanks to my buddy Chiao! The ornament she gave me inspired me to use some new bright colors. I should have a tree year round and switch up the decorations for different holidays. Next month I can decorate it with miniature bottles of hard alcohol for New Years!

Speaking of New Years this year I need to make sure and write down my resolution… that way I can at least remember it Then I should also come up with a system for tracking my progress. In case your wondering I don’t feel different now that I’m 25. My birthday was incredible though! I feel fortunate to have so many generous friends. It was the longest birthday ever! You can see the start of my pre-birthday night in the photo below Amanda, Bobbi and I went to an art opening! That’s some of the featured artwork behind me.

Final Note — Color is good.

Today I feel like my eyes are distorted. Either that… or people just look really strange. When you add music to your day it’s almost like you create a fantasy world where people move to your music. I love listening to music and watching people walk by. Or even better! Listening to music with cartoons. If your lucky they’ll go together

As long as I have music I’m happy. Tonight I’m going to listen to some frenchies play guitar. Another one of my all time favorite things! Live music. Ooooooh especially if there’s a hot guy in the band!

Final Note — Music will add flavor to your life.

It’s such a beautiful day. I love the smell of fog! It’s so refreshing. Today I’m wearing a bandanna and pigtails! I used to wear that back in the day. Now I do it on days when I don’t feel like blow-drying my hair. What a lucky person I am. Imagine in some countries women can never show there hair! Ever! Ok not really ever… but practically. Some of them can’t even show there emotions. WTG(what the gravy)! That’s wack

Yes! I’ve just figured out what I want. While walking to work listening to Samurai Champloo the ultimate gift dawned on me. A book with ballet moves. That’s right… teach yourself ballet. I love hip hop music and have always wanted to choreograph an awesome routine to some nice beats. Ballet with a twist So many ideas so little time.

Final Note — Dance Dance Dance!

I’m about to be 25 years old so I figured I might as well start writing down some of my random thoughts before I forget this wonderful period of my life. This blog is about me, my dreams, my hopes, my frustrations. Nothing but the truth. Also I’ll so graciously post a cute photo with each entry! Stay posted for my latest adventures. I have a feeling this will be a fun packed week. It is my birthday week after all! That’s one present a day to keep the jokers away. Today I got a cute little 3-dimensional card and a princess doll kit! Ironically I might one day be into making it.

You know what I really want? Money haha just kidding. I think I just might have everything my little heart desires (well at least anything that money can buy). What a crazy materialistic society we live in. And here my hypocritical ass talks about the environment. I seriously need to join some kinda group or network to do something good for the world. Green peace is a bunch of bologna. Eww one of my neighbors is creepy…. I think he works there.

Final Note — Let this be my ode to do good.