I know the feeling
Pressure from the ceiling
Caving in
You must begin
To focus on the healing
Clear your mind
And time will find you
Love yourself
We are blind to
The pressure
The pleasure
The unwanted measure
A fact of life
To strife for
Don’t close the door
Stay open
Keep hoping
For more…
Happy Independence Day! I’ve always been an independent soul… I pride myself on being unique and embrace my freedom. For some people it’s difficult to do things on their own. Personally I hate having a dependence on anything or anyone and would much rather be in control.
A friend of mine gave me the book You Can Do It!: The Merit Badge Handbook for Grown-Up Girls by Lauren Catuzzi Grandcolas. If you think about it we really can do anything our heart desires. We each hold the power to our own destinies. The book is a great tool for accomplishing goals. It has a variety of activities (that may seem impossible) and walks through step by step what actions you need to take for success. It also gives examples of powerful women who’ve achieved their dreams. If you’re looking to learn new things and need some extra motivation I definitely recommend You Can Do It!
I’ve been reading the book Angels and Demons by Dan Brown. It’s quite the adventure. I’ve gone through almost the entire book in just a few days… it’s hard to put down. The book is about a struggle between Science and God. A common debate in the real world. I’ve usually sided with science but last night I had a revelation. Despite technology and science we are all humans with common desires and fears. We need a balance, faith, something to assure us that this life is worth living. For many people religion is that assurance and I respect that. I definitely don’t agree with the beliefs of most religious buffs but at least I understand where they’re coming from.
like a dream you appear
all fear subsides
i try to hide, inside
the ride begins
spinning, grinning
we fly away
two sought to play
everlasting
could this really be?
im free
falling
a feeling unlike the past
no mask just real
i can feel
a dream come true
Okay my big secret is out of the box! I’m madly in love with… myself. Haha I almost had you
On a serious note loving yourself is one of the most important things you can do. I know that times are rough with the economy and modern living. We can’t let all that confusion alter our sense of happiness. We are all beautiful people (as Marylin Manson would say). Don’t let little or big things get you down. The only way to make things better is to start looking up and out of the box.
Happiness is a decision.
Consider this my ode to be true
Lying to myself
I can see right through
As a bird hops by
Do birds even lie
If given the opportunity
Do you think they would try
I cannot hide
This pain inside
From loss and laughter
My attempt to confide
Just listen
Listen to that little voice
I hold the power
I have a choice
I choose freedom
I choose to believe
I’ll wear my heart
Right on my sleeve
Life is full of mystery.
Despite the ups and downs… the wrongs and rights…
There will always be a brighter day.
There will be challenges but we have to fight and be strong.
We can’t let the weak or powerful slow us down.
Sorry if I sound preachy 
I just really want everyone to appreciate life and live happily. You never know when your time is up. Live it to the fullest! If anyone tries to bring you down just remember what Kat Williams would say… GO AHEAD…HATE! U need haters to make you stronger..w/o haters most ppl wouldn’t try to become better.
I just got a new body board! I’m so excited to take it out on the water. I’ve been reading a book called Sister Surfer: A Woman’s Guide to Surfing with Bliss and Courage. The book has a lot of great advice on living your life. I feel like taking on new challenges and experiences is vital to a happy and healthy lifestyle. I’m sooo stoked after reading the first half. I can’t wait to ride the waves with a beautiful long board one day… for now I’m learning the ways of the ocean with a body board. I was using a friend’s but after quite a few runs I’m ready for my own board and know what I’m looking for. Wish me luck!
It’s crazy how the ocean makes you feel when you’re out there in the middle of it all. I can’t help but have a huge grin as the sunset slowly fades in the distance.
My grandmother sent me an email this morning that couldn’t have come at a better time. Lately I’ve been questioning myself and my actions but even further the people that surround my life.
“There comes a point in your life when you realize: Who matters, Who never did, Who won’t anymore… And who always will. So, don’t worry about people from your past, there’s a reason why they didn’t make it to your future.”
It’s hard to let people go sometimes. Especially when you care for them. How do you choose who stays and who goes? For me that’s been a constant battle. I try to avoid hurting people and in doing so just end up hurting myself. I have to learn to let go of the people or feelings that bring me down. In my new journey forward I will stand up for myself. I will choose.
I watched Food Inc. last night… talk about eye opening! It’s sad how much control the government has over the food we eat. I feel like a pathetic consumer caught up in the media. The lamest part is that I’ve known this problem existed but like everyone else I simply turned a blind eye. Well I’m tired of looking the other way. It’s time to stare this life right in the face.
I will make change. Today is a new day. A new chance to start on the right path. I have to learn to see past temptation for a deeper understanding of quality, progression and change. We can change the world!
One 2 many cupcakes, Choking on my current state
A painted dream, Is so obscene, Always caught up in between
Finding time to run away, A sacred time for me to play
Deep within my hidden tent, I found myself I must repent
Awaken now u have it all, Awaken now I will not fall
Today is a very strange day… my feelings are filled with uncertainty. Unsure what to think what to feel what to be… Like what is this reality? My dog has hardly eaten nor have I. Beyond suffering from a cold I lie. I can’t deny I want to hide. Go outside and take a ride. It’s dark and cold were sick I’m told. Waiting anticipating as things unfold.
RIP Askum. I love you <3
I have a fairy tale.
I’m sure I’ve told a few.
My moments are enchanted.
I vant to be with you.
A vampire in disguise.
I’m flying through the trees.
Glistening in the sun.
State of disbelief.
Caught in the moment.
Transitioning to the moon.
My love shall come along.
Just don’t come to soon
Here’s a bunch of ideas I threw together in the spirit of the new year. I want to be more green! Green is for cool people.
- take stairs
- NO plastic bottles
- buy razor blades instead of full razors
- recycled toothbrush
- read labels
- eat local fresh organic
- wear a pin to remind yourself to be green
- eat less meat (meat takes more resources)
- start an eco food blog with photos
- wash clothes with cold water (saves tons of energy)
- buy special light bulbs
- unplug items when not in use
- only leave fridge door open when needed
- take short shower
- brush your teeth outside of the shower (saves water!)
- less toilet paper
- hang dry more clothes
- green energy
- online banking
- rechargable batteries
- green concert tickets
I feel amazing today!!! I feel like I’m listening to my heart. I know what I want and how I’m going to get it.
Ladies listen up! No matter how hard things get or how crazy your life is it’s never too late for change. You can do anything your heart desires if you try hard enough. If there’s something negative that’s bringing you down the solution is simple… you don’t need it and you don’t deserve it. Even if you do deserve it life is way too short for negativity.
I saw a quote today on a clients email signature. I think it sums it up pretty well.
LIFE IS SHORT, BREAK THE RULES, FORGIVE QUICKLY, LOVE FREELY, LAUGH UNCONTROLLABLY, AND NEVER REGRET ANYTHING THAT MADE YOU SMILE